| | Each time when I could'nt help but falling for an amazing guy, and believe me all these guys are top-notch amazing man, they all are in the category that I must stay far far away and cry myself to bed forever.
My manager ask me "YOU ARE 20 AND YOU DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND?!" he even said it to his friend like as though it was the biggest news on earth and dayyuummm.. that makes me feel like crap because who don't want an amazing guy whom I like and like me back in return woh.
They even made a big fuss over it and in the end they decided to match make me. LOL.
My manage asked his friend whether got any good responsible guy to recommend me because the previous guy i dated was pretty much a jerk and he said if its okay with me they would bring me out to meet more people.
Well, I told them I am a really boring person.... I don't go out.. my life revolves around my work and home n church.
Second biggest problem when it comes to me is when I like a guy, I tend to have a frozen lips and I never dare to look at him straight in the eyes. Yes, its exactly like those manga moments when the main girl bump into the guy she likes and she goes all head down and blush and does'nt dare to talk to him. FML, that is how I am EVERYTIME!!!
For two weeks now, I've always wanted to talk to him or say like hello or buh-bye to him but till now I still have'nt found the guts to do so.
I just love looking at him because he is like the perfect guy next door.
He makes me happy.. sooo happy even when we don't talk with small little things. The first time he left an impression in my heart was on the first day, he open the door the for me when I needed help but did'nt ask for it. He probably does it for everyone else but I was happy....
As I said, its exactly stupid manga where the guy help the girl pick up things she super happy and goes all red di... That was me.. because I am simple and stupid like that. I remember all these small bits.
I remember the time when I cut my hair and he said I look prettier.
I remember the time when my hand touches yours for the first time.
I remember the moments when I look at him and he suddenly look at me back.
However...... I also remember the time when I found out that I can never never look at him with the same feelings I have again.
Each time when I look at him now I just feel like crying inside because I really really wish things will be different.....
Perhaps if he isn't that perfect... things will be different..... the irony.
"Cause I can't stop thinking bout you boy" - suju U.
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